mental agony but not physical
in response to Frank,
Up until 2 days ago I have been calm and relaxed and suddenly I am scared. My pain level lately has been better than normal, and doubts are creeping in. Things like (It's not that bad, maybe I shouldn't have) this seems to happen each time I sink money into this. 1st time was after I bought the plane tickets $8000, and 2 days ago I sent $12000 to Dr Zeegers. It's hard to explain, the human mind is so complex. Every time I feel ok (whether in pain med induced or not) I say to myself 'where is the pain' and the doubt sets in. I find myself actually trying to bring the pain on by standing up or walking until it does, just so I am reminded of why I am doing this. I suspect there are others who have had similar experiences.
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Bad fall on A$$, Feb 2001 ice hockey
Lami L4/L5 April 2001, L5/S1 Aug 2001
Severe dislocated coccyx (same fall)
Un-diagnosed til 09. (Cannot sit)
Low back pain mild until 2011 - pull started a generator from knees.
rhizotomy Nov 2011 - zilch
Facet joint inj. 18 mo. (no impact)
Can only stand/walk for approx. 30 min
21 hrs/day in bed
L3-5 Activ-Ls (April 2014) Dr Zeegers - walk every day, swim 3 x week. Pain free, no pain meds. Extremely pleased with my decision
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