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I experienced some of the same problems before my surgery and after. It's pretty normal to feel that way. I would suggest talking to a therapist and/or trying some anti-anxiety medication. Meditation is also very helpful. The Anxiety-Phobia Workbook is a great place to start; I’ve attached a link below.

http://www.amazon.com/Anxiety-Phobia-Workbook-Fourth/dp...id=1189999124&sr=1-1

Assuming your surgery "works" some of these issues will remain. The whole process is very emotional. I’m 16 months post-op… Last week I tripped and fell down the stairs and I just started bawling because I was so worried that I had hurt my back again. The memories of it all just came flooding back. It’s almost like you have post traumatic stress after enduring the pain and struggling for so long. Just acknowledging that you are having these problems will help you deal with them better. Note that pain medication can also aggravate the symptoms and make you moody. (I’m a horrible witch when I’m on vicoden, it took a long time to realize that)
After your surgery you’ll be focusing on healing your body and getting healthy again. I would take some of that time to focus on making your mind healthy again too. Being sick like this really takes its toll on us all. Hang in there a try to think postive thoughts.